I think it's safe to say that most of us spend quite a bit of time here. You know, this thin superficial layer of self-awareness where we doubt our abilities and forget why we exist on this planet in the first place. It's an unnerving place to be – floating around in our heads without a tether to something that feels real and right.
A while back, I saw this quote from Lao Tzu (on a chocolate bar of all places),
And something inside me resounded like a giant gong of YES. Yes, that I know I am Laura and I know I want chocolate. (duh!) And Yes, that I could finally say thank God, somewhere in there I know there are some answers. And Yes, that I could no longer, in good conscience, reply "I don't know" when I truly did know but just wasn't listening hard enough.
All of it hinges on that first line. "At the center of your being." So, the answers are already in us, but how do you propose we get to the center of our being?
Well, I would like to take this opportunity to introduce a lesser-known technique called The GRS Method. It very well could be THE most challenging thing you've ever done in your life, so I must warn you, it's not for wussies.
Are you ready for it? Here it goes... GRS stands for – Getting Real Still.
No really. Getting Real Still is actually just my way of saying Meditate. I just don't want to bring all the weirdness into the conversation when someone says Meditate.
Here's the thing with meditation. It is miraculously good for you. It's been scientifically proven to lower your blood pressure. It's great for mental clarity, focus, creativity, immunity, fertility, vocabulary retention, and it makes you a devil in the sack. That last one isn't necessarily verified, but I would bet some seriously good money on it being true.
Now that you know the incredible benefits of meditation, let's talk about how you do it. There's Transcendental Meditation, breathing deeply as you count to 10, mentally flooding your body with light, going to your happy place, you could hire a coach to guide you, you could download meditations online, etc. The list goes on and on. My rule is: Do whatever works for you. That probably means you're going to have to try a bunch of different ways. It's cool. The practice is all part of it.
The most important thing about meditation is that you Get Real Still. So, however you want to do that- awesome. I like finding a quiet spot early in the morning, somewhere I can either be in nature or see it out the window. Then I just sit still, close my eyes, and breathe normally. Crazy-ass thoughts come up, and I observe them from afar and let them pass. Sometimes I do a whole chakra-clearing routine, and sometimes I imagine Source light from above raining down on my head and through my body, and sometimes I just sit and breathe. And sometimes I say screw it, and dance as goofy and loud as I possibly can to "Blurred Lines."
What happens when you practice meditation or GRS daily, is you start being able to hear and pick up on what it is you really want, and who it is you really are. That deeper center is where you tap into the wisdom that is innate, that innerWise.
When you get to that place, you start living your way into the answers. You start speaking with unwavering conviction, truth, and gravitas. You start expressing yourself fully. Owning it. Without apology. With self-confidence, grace and kindness. You now know who you are and what you want, and damn if it doesn't feel like you are the sexiest badass on the planet.
So next time you find yourself asking "Who am I?" in a bleary-eyed panic, slow it down, breathe and get super still on your outer and your inner, and know that all you will ever need is there for you, just waiting for you to claim it.