I find it rather extraordinary that I wore my hair up (like in a bun or whatever) most every day of my life for nearly 33 years.
All pent up, swept up, kept up, and desperately needing to be in control of the mess that is me.
At 33 I took my first dance class at S Factor and the teacher suggested we let our hair down. I took this as figuratively of course and scoffed internally at the idea of relaxing at my first ‘sensual movement’ class while surrounded by strangers. Later I realized that Read More
Darling reader, I realize I have not been entirely forthcoming of certain particulars near and dear to my heart, namely pole dancing. I do a lot of skittering around the issue and I might gingerly dip my toe in here and there, but have I given you the full download? No. And why is that?
I’m asking myself this question, because it’s fascinating to me the levels of fear that creep into my bones upon mention of outing my pole dancing love.
Why am I so freaked out?
Well, let me lay it out for you. Read More
I love/love/hate yoga. I love the moments of bliss and self-realization I receive from practicing, and I love/hate the moments of blinding clarity I encounter regarding my never-ending desire to control all the things outside of my control. I know this is a good thing. I have a place to safely reflect on the fact that I’m comparing and competing with nearly every single person in the room. It’s atrocious. And awesomely sobering.
I was in a class once where we Read More
Let’s just suspend our good judgement here for two minutes and entertain the odd notion that a woman’s power resides in her hips. As if power could inhabit one segregated area of our physical bodies. Y’know, hypothetically. Just roll with me here. Read More
“Stop studying.” Those were the words that came out of my teacher’s mouth.
Choking on my coffee I squeaked out a, “…come again?” Pretending I heard him wrong, but knowing full well I heard him loud and clear.
“Uhh, yeah, this is really important for you. Stop studying. You already have all this natural content that wants to come out, but you’re blocking it up with other people’s stuff.”
I’m pretty sure the next thing I said was... Read More